"The world wont end if we're not together.
But it will end for me if we're not friends forever."

Meh. Drama follows people dont it? Because I finally
got a good thing going in my life and then it ends
up being bad for the one person I thought would love
the idea. -_- I get to stay in Alpena. I get to stay
in my neighborhood. I get to live with the kid I love
so much, but he dont want me to. His parents want me
to. All his siblings want me to. But he claims to like
me and he dont want me to. HOW FLIPPIN MESSED UP!!!!!
Grrr. Then once I finally forgave him for saying that
he didnt want me to, I hear something he said to his sister
and Im mad at him again, but he was gonna cry about it.
He says a whole bunch of stuff, and expects me not to get mad
when I hear it, but when I do and accuse him of not liking
me, HE CRIES. I cant believe how utterly confusing this
is. I told his sister I dont like him anymore. So I know
while hes off at his hotel, he will be thinking about me.
And I am always thinking about him. All I wanted was to be
his friend. If he didnt want more.. Why did he kiss me
like he did? Or say if personality was looks Id be the
most beautiful person in the world? I guess he didnt know
Id hear that one. Why do guys want to hide their feelings.
When girls are just about the only creatures that will
ever truely understand them? All I want is for him to
understand I am here. And I will always put him being my
friend infront of anything else. I love him that much.
But he never comes to me....